My goal in this life is to learn to live life and love as His holiness, the Dalai Lama, does - unconditionally and without judgment. This, however, has proven to be much more difficult than I had anticipated.
Over the last 10 years I have worked diligently to change my life and have done so in wonderful and loving ways; however, I wind up still being 'me'. As a very strong, independent, smart and stubborn female, I have found it very difficult to let go of my, rather strong, opinions. I generally do so without intention of harm but, as humans are, someone always seems to get offended. So, do I apologize for my beliefs/opinions or do I forgive their judgment even though they do not forgive mine?
His holiness, the Dalai Lama, teaches that we should all love unconditionally with compassion so that we can change the Earth and I love the concept and idealism behind His teachings and wish for nothing less for the ENTIRE planet - I mean, could you IMAGINE a world without war, famine, murder???? We would reside in Heaven right here on Earth!!! While trying to grasp, understand and integrate His teachings into my every day life and the lives of my children, I find it extremely difficult to utilize these ideals when certain 'challenges' are in front of me. For instance, the drama that I was dragged into by a high school bully whom verbally attacked my daughter during school - and then used one of MY personal Facebook posts, completely unrelated to her, *from my PRIVATE personal page* to cause even MORE drama, dragging me into her narcissistic, low-self esteemed world....I find it REALLY hard to send love to someone whom is SO horrible, hateful, destructive and selfish, even though I am VERY aware that she needs the love even MORE than anyone else.
My difficulty is with allowing people like that to share in ANY of my, or my daughter's, energies because we are fully aware that we are all connected to everyone and everything and that this person's energy effects us whether we want to admit it or not. The adults surrounding this drama had decided, before even speaking with me, that this 'poor victim child' was truthful and that I was a liar. That, to me, is the ultimate insult. And, this girl has cussed out teachers at this school!!! Anyone whom knows me knows that I am not afraid to tell someone exactly what I think of them - and never have been. Yet, this girl and her mother go into the school and cause a HUGE problem using posts from MY page - which she shouldn't even have access to - to help ease HER guilty conscience. Perhaps if someone had taught her how to properly deal with her envy, she wouldn't have said those horrible things about my daughter and no one would have thought twice about my unrelated posts HOURS after her nasty, filthy mouth ran....oh, wait..there I go again.....I told you I was having trouble. Do you know what I would do if that were MY daughter speaking that way of another person? Oh, wait, I'd never have to worry about that because my daughter isn't LIKE that - she was raised to rise above things and to be a better person than that.
So, again, as I work diligently at trying to utilize the lessons I've learned, I find myself challenged. These 'adults' at school are enabling this nasty, abusive child to continue her bullying ways by, first, listening to her 'victim' speech knowing FULL WELL that she is a problem child at school and, secondly, by disallowing me to chaperon my daughter on trips, etc. while allowing this girl and her coddling mother to go, leaving my daughter even MORE vulnerable to a bullying abuser and one of the people responsible for her horrific behavior and attitude. I teach my children that the energy you 'put out' in this world comes back to you ten-fold and they behave accordingly. When something like this comes up, I just don't know how to explain it other than sometimes darkness and evil are sometimes stronger than goodness and light and that, one day, goodness and light WILL prevail. If nothing else, we use this example as the kind of people we DON'T want to be. Someone whom self-loathes ALWAYS picks on others whom are full of love and light and that's what's happened here. How do I forgive and send love to someone SO FULL OF HATRED and darkness??? I'm trying, that's all I can promise. I have to keep aware and my daughter also has to stay aware but we can't let this rule us or change who we are. Some people can be lured and fooled by the evil ones but we're not going to allow that to happen to us.
I will continue to teach my children and to work with them as we try to live the teachings of His holiness because we WANT to live in world that's not 'us against them,' war and a world that's run using fear; we want to live in a world that's full of love, support, compassion and kindness. And we're told that love and kindness are contagious - and THAT is the kind of pandemic we want to see. <3
As this journey continues, I'm sure there will be some whom are angry at this post, as well. All I can say is that, as for right now, we celebrate freedom of speech. If you do not like my words, then don't read them. I radiate love at every conscious moment; however, that doesn't mean that I'm not going to protect those that I love or fight for truth.
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